I want to keep you around for long time, I do. I feel so confused though, I worry that my brain is just a piece in some game for you. I want to express how I feel but it changes everyday so I guess I need to keep that to myself. I wish I wasn't a perpetual five year old all the time, I wish I wasn't so up tight and could just make up my mind. Blog, have you ever had it where you have something you want so bad but you know it might not be what you need?